never again the same...

It's official. Our lives will never again be the same. Dave and I are expecting our first child. I can't stop smiling even as I type this.

We're about three months along. Hopefully the morning (actually all-day) sickness will be over soon. I also can't wait to feel like myself again and have energy to get through a whole day without needing to take a nap on my lunch hour. :) And, at the risk of sounding like I'm complaining too much - I'd really like to enjoy food again.

With all that said, I always thought, "Yeah right?!" when women said they forgot about all the pain of labor once they met their litte one. On a much smaller scale, I think that now I might understand a little bit. Going through these first three months has been anything but a picnic, but all that changed yesterday.

Yesterday morning, for the first time we met our little one. The kiddo is tiny - just about 2 1/2 inches. It's amazing that those 2 1/2 inches just changed my life forever. Absolutely amazing. You just can't prepare yourself for how you'll feel when you see that little one on the screen. Knowing that it's the product of an Almighty Creator who is loving it, knitting it, and forming it as it grows inside of you is breathtaking. As I looked at the screen and heard the baby's heartbeat, there were tears running down my face. Suddenly all those weeks of sickness, fatigue, and wondering if all of this would ever end was worth it all. A new life is forming inside of me - a special gift from God that He's entrusted to Dave and I.

Psalm 139:13-16

For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them.